Counting My Days

So teach us to number our days, That we may present to You a heart of wisdom. Psalm 90:12

A New Year…A New Start

A new year has begun…and with it comes all the possibility and hope we can imagine. And yet, that possibility can be overwhelming. We analyze our behavior and recalibrate our focus.  What do I want to do different? What things do I want to stay the same? How can I be in a better place at the end of this year? What hobbies are waiting to be discovered? How can we do our part to enrich our lives and those we love?    And yet, by the 2nd week in January, more of us are done with the changes we’ve committed to make.  Over the past couple of years I’ve heard the buzz about a new movement that seems to be quickly overshadowing the traditional New Year’s resolution hype.  The gist of this movement is to forego resolutions (because of the above mentioned tendencies) and instead choose ONE WORD to define your year.  This one word serves as the guidepost for your actions, goals, relationships, etc…It’s a great way to help keep your mind on the bigger picture of what you want your life to be.  So over the past few days I’ve been seriously considering what I want my guidepost word to be for 2012 and yesterday I chose INTENTIONAL. This will be a challenge for me as I often find myself enjoying the ride I’m on rather than plotting my course. Being intentional this year will cause me to stretch in all areas of my life. Here is how I plan to apply it:

INTENTIONAL Spiritual Growth:  I am busy, but in reality I’m no busier than any of you.  To the One who created the universe, I am often too busy to acknowledge outside of mealtimes. I am ashamed. It is truly inexcusable, and yet I find myself there more than I care to admit. Without daily time in His Word and in prayer, I gradually become less than He made me to be. My attitude and priorities in this area need to change in 2012.   This year I want to be intentional on the priority He is in my life…the priority HE deserves to be.

INTENTIONAL Marriage Development:  “…for better or for worse…” that is the commitment Sean and I made.  We will celebrate our 13th wedding anniversary on January 16th.  We have been blessed, but it has not always been easy. For anyone who is married, or has been married, you know that marriage takes lots of work. We have Christ as the center of our marriage, but that does not mean we are always focused on Him. We often get caught up with our individual responsibilities and forget that we should have each other as our focus after God. We have both agreed that during 2012 we need more date nights, more late nights on the porch, and more intentional time together.

INTENTIONAL Parenting:  Does anyone else struggle with feeling you are ruining your kids with each passing day?  Okay, I do not believe I am ruining them, but there are moments that I wonder how much their therapists bills will be once they leave the nest!  The days that we have as parents to influence and impact the lives of our children are minimal compared to the number of days they will be on their own. I will be more intentional on setting goals for character development, spiritual knowledge, service opportunities, and educational growth.

INTENTIONAL Home Management:  Big area of opportunity here!  I admit it…I am a horrible housekeeper. I think it’s genetic! This year I need to focus on making (and keeping!) a cleaning schedule and ensure I am able to do those daily tasks to help the home running smoothly.

INTENTIONAL Financial Responsibility:  My wants tend to overshadow my needs more frequently than they should.

INTENTIONAL Homeschooling:  I am in my 3rd year of homeschooling my oldest.  It is such a blessing to be able to pour into her a Biblical worldview daily.  As we embark on the remainder of the current year as well as make plans to begin Classical Conversations in the Fall, I want to be more intentional on the activities and lessons we do each day.

INTENTIONAL Business Development:  After losing 60 pounds on the Take Shape for Life program in 2010, I became a Health Coach so I can help others attain their health goals.  I had a very successful 2011, and I have a basic framework for where I want to be at the end of 2012, however it will take time and energy and I want to be intentional on how I spend time developing my business.  I want to be efficient and effective with the limited time I have each day to help the most people I can.

These are the thoughts that came to me easily, but I am certain there are many more areas in my daily life that will benefit from me being more INTENTIONAL.  I plan on sharing how this is carried out over 2012.  Let me warn you, it’s going to be a rough ride, so you better hang on!


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1000 Gifts…It’s only a beginning

Gratitude…do you accept it more freely than you give it? If I’m honest with myself, I will admit I do. And how often do we overlook the gifts God gives us in our daily lives? Again, probably more often than not. Ann Voskamp over at instituted this list in her life a couple of years ago and here’s what she found:

Giving thanks for a thousand graces has changed my life — to glorify Him in all things! How He’ll use you this for transformative ways in your life…

I don’t know about you, but I need some transformation in my life! So here’s the start of my list of 1000 gifts:

1. Thankful to be loved.

2. Thankful for knowing how to love the 4 precious people I share my life with daily.

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Tally Marks

Knowing my days are numbered is hard to comprehend.  I am grateful I don’t know the number of my days that God has determined for me.  As I reflect on the life I have, I am truly amazed at all the blessings I have been given.  I know that sounds cliche’, but it is so true.  After the birth of my third child last year, I felt a stirring inside that made me realize “game on.”  I have to be ready and able to give these children and my husband all of me for many years to come – if it’s God’s will.  I want to be a spiritual role model for them and help them realize the treasure they are to Christ – yet, I’m still trying to find my own identity in Christ.  I want to teach them to take care of the one body they’ve been given – yet, I’m still learning (and often failing) how to do that for myself.  I want to teach my children how to love each other and rely on family and to forgive easily and quickly – yet, I find myself anxious, hurt and angry with family members when things do not work out quite like I anticipated.  I want to offer a selfless, unconditional servant’s heart to my children and my husband – yet, I find myself wondering when the laundry will ever end and when will I get some “me” time.  I want my husband to yearn for me – yet, I often collapse in the bed at night after a day of constant activity and serving.  I want to love more. give more. serve more. be more.

Dear God,  you have ordained my days before I was formed in my Mother’s womb and for that I am so thankful and in awe of your love for me.  Lord, I want to make use of every day you give me.  Help me to keep my eye on you and your Word so that I may gain a heart of wisdom so that I can ensure all my days are a tally mark for you.  Thank you for always loving me.  Amen.

You have made my days a mere handbreadth; the span of my years is as nothing before you. Each man’s life is but a breath. ~Psalm 39:5

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